Life's Pleasures

The death toll around Asia is increasing so quickly yet I'm enjoying myself & is only concerned bout me. Am I being selfish? I hope not. It's not that I'm not sadden by the whole thing, but I can't expect myself to sit home all day & mourn for the misfortunate right? My whole heart goes out to those affected but life has to go on. Hold on to memories cause you know they will always be in your heart. I pray for all & hope things will get better soon. Very soon.

2 days to year 2005 yet I don't feel the anxiety. Mayb I should start feeling anxious. I mean I never know what 2005 holds for me. I REALI hope it will be a much greater year. Not saying 2004 was bad. It was great. But mayb not as great as I would like it to be. Looking positive for the year 2005, hoping for new beginnings...

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

1:38 PM

Let me just skip on today's job-hunting coz Monday is never a good day for THAT activity.

Then what the hell is Monday good for?? Haha..What a quetion. Well, nothing is better for both syam & me to pour our happiness, grievances & sorrow to each other. To cut it short - WHATEVER HAPPEN THE PAST WEEK.

My dear gal, after all that has happen, here's what I think. We gals tend to be the weaker gender & at times we are misused by the guys. Don't mis-quote me coz I said "AT TIMES". Each time we try to be strong, there's always something pulling us back down. But stand strong for yourself cause you'll by-past it one of these days. Trust me you will. Furthermore what's done cannot be undone. You either hold a grudge or let it go. And DON'T hate him. Cause only YOU know what's inside your heart is a much more wonderful feeling.

And by the way, bout the belt thingy I'll get back to you when I've ask my couz when he returns from KL.

Seriously I have no idea how I feel right now. What am I suppose to know by looking at a few lines? Are all those suppose to make me feel confused? If it is, I'll tell you one thing - I HATE FEELING CONFUSED. Coz at times the whole thing gets to my mind, I can't sleep at night. And not being able to sleep is the worse scenario for me. I have had enough of feeling confused!!

Friday, December 24, 2004

11:56 AM

I'm back on the same day but different time. Aniwae, rating my day from 1-10?? A pathetic 7. I have no idea why but my day can never get a perfect score. Is it bad luck or is it just me??

Aniway, why did you have to call at the last minute??!!?? I would have if you called earlier. Try again next week. And make sure you do. It was a pleasant surprise and it brought some joy to me today. Well, at least you tried asking.

Now here comes the main event of the day. MY SHOPPING SPREE WAS A TOTAL DISASTER!! The worse I've ever been on. I couldn't find a top from Dorothy Perkins which I could get using my voucher. And a shoe I was hoping to get from Charles & Keith just happen to be sold out. What great timing. Just my luck.

2:12 AM

Officially ending my work over at Carrefour yesterday. Cmon people. Rejoice for both me and syam. Why don't I see a standing ovation?? Hah..wat a joke!! Well not exactly for syam coz she still needs to return on fri to finish off what she didnt do. But do hold on gal. I'll be down to help you if I'm free on that day. For now I can't comfirm yet aite?

One bad thing might be over but a new one has arrived. I'm seriously sick. Almost lost my voice a few days back & it's been a long time since I'm sick this bad. I seriously have no idea why there are certain people who seem to enjoy getting sick. Is it the pampering you get from people? Or the ability to go to the doc to get MC so you can get off from work? Or is is just the pure enjoyment of being able to lie in bed the whole day & watch re-runs of Friends or Sex & The City?

Well..for me I don't need the pampering, the ability to get MC or the enjoyment. That's because when I get sick I'm rather weak & have no appetite to eat. And end up forcing myself to eat or I would go thru the day with an empty stomach. Enough said. I just wish I would be better by Christmas. A Christmas wish ya Santa? I would reali like to enjoy the season of Christmas without being sick.

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

2:59 AM

I'LL BE SUFFERIN ALONE TODAY!!!!!!!!! My great fren syam decided to go on MC & I would have to work all alone today. The thought of that just puts me off. I wish I could also go on MC. My throat is screaming for me to stop speaking so often & my body just needs a rest. It'll be luck if I could go thru the whole day today without losin my voice. The 5th day of torture and 2 more days of awaiting pressure. But seriously I think syam's back pain is like even worse then the sore in my throat. Well gal, take care of yourself & please do come back for work TOMORROW!!!

Damn!! So many things are going thru my mind. Missin someone, work, my sufferin social life. Wonder how someone can do so many at one time. Need an example?? FIZAH. Aarrggh..I think my mind needs a rest. I've had enough of the pressure of work already to think of others. It'll be better I worry bout them another time.

Sunday, December 19, 2004

2:52 AM

Looking forward to a brand new day is right now not my few top priorities. Wonder why? Coz work is right now part of my daily routine. The thought of having to wake up & go to work later in the afternoon is such a dread. To make things worse I spend the whole time standing while asking people to do survey which I myself think the questions are rather irrelevant. And the result of standing for 6 long damn hours??!! ACHING LEGS!! All I ever complain these days are about my legs & how I would rather not work. But then again I think I would have to get used to this kinda life since I'm gonna look for another job OR my wallet would just be left with air. I'm gonna persevere for a few more days. 1 week is not THAT long rite?? And to those who say they rather work than study..Here's a little advice. Work sucks. Period.

Friday, December 17, 2004

2:45 AM

There was a turn of events last nite & what a great sleep I had! And once again I'll have a smile plastered on my face for the next few days. Fine..not literally plastered otherwise people would think I'm crazy. It means I would be in sucha good mood for the next few days I wouldnt mind entertaining or tolerating people's nonsense. Haha..It's strange how a turn of events or more specific, a call, could change the mood of a gal especially for me. Call me a typical Gemini. I guess it's that's little happiness to be able to listen to the lovely voice over the other end and feelin that little comfort when you chat with someone. But to make the phonecall was no laughin matter. My heart was beating 500 times the norm and for a moment I got shaky I couldnt even type properly. But after listenin to the voice all anxiety seem to disappear. So advice to myself & all others: If you are eager to do something, take the plunge and things will just fall into place.

Aniwae, I'll be starting my temporary job in bout 5hrs. Seriously I wouldnt even work if I have the money to spend. But right now the hole in my pocket is becoming more apparent I cant help it but to find anotha way to get cash without asking my parents. I mean it's embarrassing ok..I'm already gettin $60/wk which is ALOT for most people. These days when I go out all I do is window-shop. And being a typical gal I would LOVE to do more then that, & right now the inability to actually buy stuffs is gettin to my nerves.

And to the person leavin Singapore today...Take care & have fun...And do return cause you should know that what I said was a joke...BON VOYAGE!

Thursday, December 16, 2004

11:47 AM

It's high time i actually meet some of my sec. sch frens & that's exactly wat I did today. Busy wif our own lives we sure have a hard time tryin to find time to meet up wif each otha. Geok wif her job,xl wif her dance & me wif my job hunting. But the wait was worth it. It was sure gr8 meetin dem again. It's fren lyk these whom we wldnt one to lose. Bringin out the bez in you, knowin they wil always be ther though @ times they tease you til you feel lyk chokin dem which can get rather irritatin. But hey! it's not tt im complainin.That's exactly wat frens do rite?

Anw geok wat you told me to keep mum bout dis aftnoon i promise i wil. No worries bout it. And please dun try 2 fool me again.

Hey dhan..U tol me to give it a try..Well i did try but he said he wil b havin otha calls so perhaps anotha time...& thxs for pushin me..It was worth the try..

To my dear syam all the bez 2 you tml on the job...btw u tol me to give u a call after my shift but how am i suppose to contact you?? you sure confuse me at times...

Til the next time...im out...

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

3:42 PM

My stomach & hand muscles are screamin.Blame it on ME,MYSELF & FIZAH for not keepin up wif exercisin.Thank god my body did not give way or i'd be dead by now.

Forced myself to wake up for an early start of job hunting.Started the day without a bang! Both me and syam were not reali in the mood to talk til we drop. Blame it all on the monday blues. I wonder is there reali such a thing called monday blues or are we purposely makin monday blue juz bcoz itz monday.Alrite..Now im gettin miself confused. To those readin this well good luck in tryin 2 understand.

The people of Singapore just decided not to have ads for job vacancies on monday! Dammit!! So little accomplished in a dae.

Gettin this from syam - I WAS IN THE HEADLINES. haha... me & my silliness(is ther sucha word??). so engrossed in pressin d lift button i dun realize i was stoppin d lift door from closin. And that pretty little gal, syam , didnt bother to tell me the lift was already open. & i sure got d looks frm the stupid old lady. But hey! at least i still got the child in me!! And thanks to that whole incident, i became the joke of the day for the nxt few hours...ESP FOR SYAMILAH HUSSAIN SHAH!

To end the dae..LOVE IS AN ACCIDENT WAITIN TO HAPPEN...wat does that mean?experience it and u'll understand d true meanin...

Sunday, December 12, 2004

6:21 AM

Woke up with a pain in my back & a mind takin its own rollercoaster ride.Thank god i did not wake up on the wrong side of the bed or my beloved sis would be the first victim of the monster in me. Aniwae the gym seems to be lyk an ancient place to me rite now. It seemed lyk years since i last workout and givin it a restart dis mornin was no joke. The energy in me only managed to put me thru the treadmill for 10 mins though my mind wasnt givin up. I think i beta make exercisin one of my main priorities startin from today.Could that be a new year resolution?? I wonder...And to those people who have promised to get into the exercisin mode wif me u guys beta keep that promise...

Rewind to yesterdae. Job huntin is sure not an easy task. But wif sum1 lyk syam around it makes the whole experience more interesting and less mundane. Hey gal! We'll find a job soon enuf, so we shall persevere.

Recently asked dhan sum personal Qs. Though wat i find out is not wat i want to hear stil i thank you for bein honest. Lookin on the bright side at least im special in a way & that he considers me a close fren.

I've missed many..But for that special sum1 itz more than juz a simple "I Miss You"..

Fizah

I do things my way.
So don't stop me.

Don't be afraid to make a wrong move.
Because life has a funny way of making all things wrong seem right.

Memories don't do us much good.
It becomes of a burden as we age.

footprints

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