Life's Pleasures

The last day of Yr 2, Sem 1. Time flies faster than what I would have preferred.

At this moment, Day 1 of Yr 2, Sem 1 is such a blur. It seems so far away but I feel like it was just yesterday.

Rewind.
Waking up this morning, I knew that unless things happen before the stroke of midnight of 29 July 2006, I would have to close another chapter of my life.
Those hopes and memories were to be talked about at another time and place.
Close ones told me to grab every single opportunity.
But I guess I let every single one slip right through my fingers.

Looking back, other than regretting not taking advantage of the opportunities, there were no regrets.
I can see the strength I possess.
I learn that letting go opens my eyes and heart to what surrounds me.
I realize that I'm ready to love again. ( Hah! Such coincidence that "I Will Learn to Love Again" is playing on my iTunes.)
I'm finally honestly moving on and along.
The past pave the way to my future.
I believe that now.

A tinge of sadness fills my heart.
But I know my future shines brightly ahead of me.
Closing one chapter opens another.
I truly believe that.
But have any of you ever thought that the chapter that you closed might just reopen?
As we all know, we won't know what lies ahead.
So let's just hold on to what we have at the moment.

Because of you I have grown. And I thank you for that.

Monday, July 24, 2006

6:15 AM

Projects are things of the past. For now.
Exams are in 11days time.
Damn those exams.
They can be such a hassle.
Revision has not been started.
Now I wonder how I'll cope.

I'll make a mental note.
Tomorrow I shall start revising.
And by this Friday, I would be mugging.
See the difference.
Not a problem if you don't.
Cause' as long as I see the difference I'm fine.

Alright. I don't intend to actually be here blogging.
But revising for my French ICA is giving me a headache, therefore blogging is the next best alternative.

Here's what I need before the mugging period starts.
Shopping with Darling Pearl & Geoky.
38 session with Geoky.
Movie catching with Darling Pearl & Geoky.
A day at the spa.

With all of that I'm sure it'll put me in the mugging mode. *I hope*
butdoessomeonemindpayingformyspavisit?

Blogging bout' EXAMS is boooo..ring!!
So I'll take my leave.
Furthermore I hear my french book calling for me.
Au revoir!!!!

Friday, July 14, 2006

1:52 PM

My cousin's so cute lah!!!

"You do love it too? Next time we go out eat chicken rice k? Then come over to my place watch Power Rangers."

How cute is that??

I miss my Power Rangers days.

I'm being totally random.

I feel free.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

12:27 AM

What a great way to start the day!!!! Such bloody fucked up people. I woke up early just to make things easier yet they're making things more difficult.

Not like they deliver quality work. I needed to at least see the work that is done and do the correction that is needed. I'm doing projects for the sake improving my grades and NOT lowering it down. DAMN IT!!!

You can giggle and say "Sorry" for all I care, but I take my work seriously. Doing work up till the very last minute is not my style. I wouldn't want to give up my beauty sleep for school work. I guess you're just not managing your time well.

I figured out something. You said you've done your part. You insisted that all of us send our part to you. So we did. At the last minute, you wanted me to compile it. But when I asked for your part you said you're not done. CONTRADICTING. PLAIN CONTRADICTING. Self-proclaiming that you're the leader doesn't give you the right to LIE and delay your work.

Things are not that simple. I've had enough of all the mind games. No more working with this group of people.

Fizah is pissed off. Stay away.

Saturday, July 08, 2006

10:55 AM

I Decide - Lindsay Lohan

Don't think that you can tell me what to think
I'm the one who knows what's good for me
And I'm stating my independence
Gonna take the road I'm gonna take
And I'm gonna make my own mistakes
It's my life
I decide

I decide how I live
I decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide
I decide where I go
What I need
Who I know
I'm the one who's runnin' my life
I decide
I decide

Don't think you're ever gonna hold me down
Couldn't do it then can't do it now
I'm kickin' down all the fences
I'm gonna do it all and do too much
And if I mess the whole thing up
It's my ride
I decide

I decide how I live
I decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide
I decide where I go
Where I sleep
Who I know
I'm the one who's runnin' my life
I decide
I decide

I'm taking my own chances
And I'm finding my own answers
I'm only answering to me
And that's the way it's gonna be
I decide
Oh yeah
I decide
I decide

I decide how I live
I decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide
I decide where I go
Where I sleep
Who I knowI
'm the one who's runnin' my life
I decide
I decide

I decide how I live
I decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide

There's this funny feeling in me.
I feel confident.
I know I'm independent.
But it's a feeling stronger than any other times.

Maybe it's the recent talk I had with the 2 dearest ladies in my life.
One is like the chocs in my life. We all know how a lady can't live without her chocs.
The other is the honey. And I'm the bee. We go hand in hand.

Time pulls us apart time and again.
But with a heart to keep the friendship alive, we've gone thru the high and lows as one.

They are the shoulders I cry on.
They are the ones I laugh with.
They are the ones who have seen me be the fool I am.

We are 3 independent ladies with different personalities which sets us apart.
But fate brought these 2 beautiful ladies into my life and have since changed it.
I don't care if I don't have many friends.
Treasures in life are more worth the keep.

We shall stand tall and independent.
No one's gonna tell us what to do except us.
We are who we are.

If words can express how much I love both of you, I would.
But we all know it never can.
So let's just hold on to the good times and care for each other from the bottom of our hearts.

ihaveeverythingthaticanaskof.allineednowisaknightwhowillkeepmesafeatnightandprotectiontheofafirmhand. (yadotmihwas)

I decide what I do in life.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

11:23 PM

I don't need the complication. Things are complicated enough as it is. Look out for the signs. I don't wish to hurt you.

I need more sleep. My eyes are blinking so often I could die of over-blinking. Okay. I'm being random.

ANYWAYS,

I miss my SISTER. Quick come back!!!
I miss my bestfriend. Pearl, don't you just wish we have more time for each other??? I need to see you!!!
I miss Geoky. I wish time can be turned to our younger days. Can't wait for our next get-together!!
I miss Sarah. I still do think of you. So don't you dare forget me!!
I miss Xiaolin. I really wonder when we would meet up again.
I miss Amelia. I miss Ally. Can we please bump into each other in school more often???
I miss Aly. I miss Jon. I miss Claire. I miss Azril. Life's a lil' different without you sweeties.

I'm off to sleep.

Missing someone is as heart-breaking as losing them.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

10:11 AM

Life's pretty hectic now. I'm looking forward to days when school work doesn't occupy my mind.

For now, let's just try to get through things. Be patient and my next update might just be interesting. =)

Take care all!!

Fizah

I do things my way.
So don't stop me.

Don't be afraid to make a wrong move.
Because life has a funny way of making all things wrong seem right.

Memories don't do us much good.
It becomes of a burden as we age.

footprints

don't leave

ALTHEA
AMELIA
ANNICE
CHRISTINA
DAYANA
*GEOK LENG*
HERDA
JASON TOH
JOSHUA
SARAH
SHIKIN
SHIMA
SULINAH
XUELI