Life's Pleasures

I've never been pressured so much in my life before. It's too much. I can't breathe. And I can't stop the tears from flowing.

Free me this once. Let me regain my thoughts. Let my heart do the thinking while my mind the supporting.

Then I will do as I'm supposed to. I promise you that.

No one can take this heart and mind that belongs to me.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

1:22 PM

Today - a standstill

Me - depressed

Life - uninviting

Past - a wreck

Future - untold

Go figure how my life has been so far...

Thursday, September 22, 2005

1:40 PM

Yeah I know I was here just this morning. But get out of this personal space if you think I'm such a drag. *smiles sarcastically*

I'll cut short the whole day. Met up with Mia, Ally, Xue and Zhen. To? Celebrate Ally's belated birthday. *shouts out* Hope you love the present babe!!!

Didn't get to karaoke. Neither did we play pool. Although we wanted to. So we walked along till it was time to leave.

I guess that's all.

Oh ya!! MIA!! ALLY!! Quick upload the pics!! I want them!! Hee..

Take care gurls. Love each of you for being just YOU. I'll miss all of you. Til' we meet again. SOON!!! =)

2:51 AM

I had a lovely time yesterday. The day was spent with my cute darling, Pearlyn.

Of course we walked aimlessly. Cause' we didn't plan what to buy and obviously we had to save money to buy some other personal stuffs.

But of course there were funny moments. Yup! From the guy in the train eating bread(that was WEIRD!!) to the Catholic High guy who dropped his pink waterbottle. Haha!!

Anyway, I've realized yet another thing. My Pearlyn darling is the closest new friend I've found. She's like the best friend I've never known. She's like a mirror image of me(besides the point that we look totally different). I open up to her so quickly unlike many other times. I'm looking forward to getting to know her better. Love you dear.. *winks*

Again, I would like to thank Alyssa darling. She's the angel I found in a friend. I might not be that close to her, but it all takes time. Thanks dear for listening out and letting me know that you're always standing by. And I love how you always have a positive outlook of life. You put a smile on my face. Love you babe.. *hugs*

I ask myself.

Is this feeling for real?
I hope so.

Is that what I've been looking for?
I don't know.

Is that what I lack in my life?
I hope so.

Then why do I keep turning back?
I don't know.

I'm confused. Sometimes, I just got to let it flow.

Is it possible for the heart to be drowned in two others?

Friday, September 16, 2005

11:08 AM

Thinking that life would be simpler now. But who am I kidding? Life is never simple. No such thing as "The Simple Life".

I think about that certain person. Day in, day out. But at the end of the day, my hopes still crushes down. I'm thinking bout' that person, but that person is thinking of another. That lil' patience of mine died awhile ago. I have a feeling I'll be walking this long road home ALONE.

Things never go my way. It never has. Especially when it concerns love. I'm beginning to give up.

Fizah, hold on to that faith. I know you still believe.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

5:18 AM

My handphone is definitely giving me problems.

The time is all wrong. The person on the other end can't hear me. There seem to be only vibrations but no ringtone.

Just one month to go. Might as well not waste the money to service the phone.

And I swear I would hit myself if I drop the phone another time. That would just bring my phone to the the world of dead cities.

One last thing to get off my mind before I go.

I think I need to surround myself with more positive people. My darling Alyssa is one example. Love you babe!!

I'm gone.

Monday, September 12, 2005

8:37 AM

Was hoping to get a new phone next weekend. But found out that the contract is still not expired.

Am only able to trade-in my phone and upgrade next month.

I shall be patient. Cause' patience always pays off.

Now I'm wondering what phone I should get.

*goes off wondering*

Oops!! Forgot one thing.

Would like to wish my babelicious darling Aretha, a very Happy 17th Birthday! This is YOUR day! Keep on shining dear! Love you! *muacks*

*goes off wondering again*

Saturday, September 10, 2005

8:24 AM

Missed the reunion. Heard it was a blast.

There will be many more to come. And I promise to make it for the next one.

I can't believe there are those who thinks I'm still stuck in the past. Read in-between these lines.

I've moved on. I'm over it. I don't give a damn anymore. So move on with your life too.

I feel so much better releasing the tension in me.

Now I can rest in peace.

I demolish my bridges behind me...then there is no choice but to move forward.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

2:55 PM

Today is the slowest day I have ever gone thru.

Imagine this.

Me flipping the pages of a Danielle Steel book. 5mins later I put the book down as it was too draggy. It seemed never ending.

I turned to the television. Channel after channel I was clicking away. But still I came back to the same exact channel of MTV. That I spent half an hour doing.

Tried to sleep [when I had actually just woken up]. But getting bitten by a damn mosquito all over my body got me too uncomfortable to sleep.

Finally, I decided to turn back to television for the rest of the day.

That was how I spent my day. Ugh!!

Enough said.

Anyway I was reminded of a show I watched yesterday.

The show came half an hour later then usual. But that's beside the point.

Yes. It was One Tree Hill. You know the one with the hot Chad Michael Murray and his gorgeous wife, Sophia Bush? Yup. That's the one.

I've realized that this show teaches me the many lessons in life.

It potrayed how sometimes people go all the way out to gain something for themselves putting aside the fact that their actions might hurt those they love.

It showed me that at times, as human we leave our love ones behind to chase our dreams. The dreams our hearts have been yearning for a long, long time.

I also learned that in life we need to learn when to let go. Sometimes it's for the best.

This one lesson hit me in the heart. That we need to express what we feel inside. Otherwise it might just be too late.

Lastly, and the most important lesson yet, 'Above all, love conquers.'

Alright. Moving on to a lighter topic.

Watching a particular movie, something struck me.

Wouldn't I love to have a hot, gorgeous guy at my birthday party strumming the guitar while singing a song for me? That's the best party I'll ever have. Friends!! Are you all reading this? My 18th birthday would be good. Haha!! *winks*

I think I've said enough. I'm off.

The world need more warm hearts and fewer hot heads.

Fizah

I do things my way.
So don't stop me.

Don't be afraid to make a wrong move.
Because life has a funny way of making all things wrong seem right.

Memories don't do us much good.
It becomes of a burden as we age.

footprints

don't leave

ALTHEA
AMELIA
ANNICE
CHRISTINA
DAYANA
*GEOK LENG*
HERDA
JASON TOH
JOSHUA
SARAH
SHIKIN
SHIMA
SULINAH
XUELI