Life's Pleasures

I don't know if I can say what I want to say.

Each day around 5pm I pray that I wouldn't hear the name. It becomes a routine I just get paranoid each time. Oh! And when I do hear the name my eyes start welling up. But just for a brief moment because I know it's not worth shedding the tears.

I used to enjoy staying at home for a few days in a week during the holidays. But this time, I'm dying to go out each day. To make matters worse, my sis won't be home today and tomorrow. I miss her already.

Enough of this. It's just making my life hell.

I pray each night to see you. I pray each night to dream about you. There's only one I thing in life that I pray would go my way. LOVE.

Happiness is a choice that requires effort at times.

Friday, March 10, 2006

4:24 AM

Honestly, can I ever hate myself??
Honestly, can I ever kill myself??
Honestly, can I ever make my own life more miserable??

I feel so small in this world. With everything that's happening I wish I could retreat to my own world. Ugh!!

Please do not take things out on us. Our heart ache looking at you in the current situation. But we're not your punching bags. Don't simply throw words at us. We have feelings too. It happens time after time. Just one time, please spare us all the screaming.

I miss you. Do I even have the right to miss you?? I need an answer right now.

Don't tell me what NOT to do. It's my life I'm living.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

5:55 AM

I'm not in the mood to blog. So I'll jus post pics alright?
Enjoy!!

My ultimate bestfriend-cum-darling. If there's one word to describe our friendship, it's BEAUTIFUL. Just like the 2 of us. Love ya!! *hugs*

No.2 on my bestfriends list. You know you're my darling too. Thanks for the listening ear and everything else. A friendship filled with honesty. Take care sexy BABE!! Love ya!!

Life may not always be in place, but we can always count on each other to get by each day. Thanks for always being there for me darlings. *winks*

I have 3 bestfriends and you're no.3 on this short list. You've stuck with me for the past 4 years, and I'm sure many more to come. Thanks for just being part of my life. Love you dear!! *muacks*

How can I EVER forget YOU??? One of my cute, lovely girlfriends whom I adore. We might not see each other that often but you know I always keep you in mind. Take care sweetie. You know I love you. *winks*

I still can't believe how I met this 3 wonderful ladies, and today we're ONE. All those troubles we used to have just proves that friendship needs time to be built. And you with the cap!! Yes YOU!! I miss you badly!! Make sure you make it for our next get-together. *smiles*

Ally - You're the ultimate bombshell!!! So gorgeous a lady yet so down-to-earth. I know I can turn to you anytime something's not right in my life. We learn from each other - that's what's different about our friendship. I'm here for you babe, just a phone call away. I love you!! *muacks*

Zhen - Don't be deceived by her sweet innocent look!! She's as evil as the rest of us!! *laughs hysterically* Honestly, she's the sweetest lady I know. Whenever we talk, you make me feel like I'm the only one in the world. With that, you make me feel special. I love you for that. Take care sweetheart.

Xue - She's as cheeky as me. She's as playful as me. She may be all of that but deep down she's a such a sweetheart. I really mean that. All those little surprises you give brings warmth to my heart. Keep those surprises coming. I love ya!!

Mia - The loudest among us. Haha!! But her personality is one I have a love-hate relationship with. Her sarcasm is so intense you feel like killing her at times. But dear, those heart-to-heart talks we had, either online or face-to-face, just proves to me that all of us are weak at times. I'm always here for you sweetie. Love ya!! *smiles*

Union of the Soul Sistas. 4 amazing honeys whom I love and treasure. I'm sure the friendship we share will last a lifetime. *hugs*

I miss this bunch of people soooo much. From the laughters to the jokes, from the teasing to the sarcasm. If only I could relive those moments, I would do it in a heartbeat. Each of you have an extraordinary personality and because of that I love each and every one of you. Take Care. I'm sure we'll meet soon.

There's one more group of people whose photos are suppose to be up here. But I can't find any. Remember Le'Farme? Yup. But you girls know I miss all of you badly.

Also, I wanted to post some random photos but this stupid blogger is not allowing me to do so. So I'll leave it for the next time.

P.S Photos that look blur or not so great are meant to be as I've edited the photos individually.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

5:24 AM

Having so much ME time for the past few days, I went into a state of reflection.

I feel there's something missing in my life. Something is just not right. I seem to have everything but just one thing missing. And because of that one thing, it's making my life a lil' empty. My life would not be complete without it.

A favorite line from "Rumor Has it".
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'I won't tell you I can't live without you. Cause' I can. I just don't want to.'

Yesterday was fabulous. Everything. From the breakfast (or was it brunch?) to the movie. From the shopping to the bull-shitting. A perfect way to complete a catch-up session.

And you seem to have been influenced by me haven't you?? You're making your shopping decisions pretty fast.

Lastly, the comfort we have with each other is indescribable. There's no need for words.

Aarrgghh!!!!!! Why are my Birks not here yet??!!??!!?? I'm getting bloody worried. I'm praying sooooo hard that it will arrive soon. And I mean very soon.

Problems have its way of getting to you. But it takes you to get out of it.

Fizah

I do things my way.
So don't stop me.

Don't be afraid to make a wrong move.
Because life has a funny way of making all things wrong seem right.

Memories don't do us much good.
It becomes of a burden as we age.

footprints

don't leave

ALTHEA
AMELIA
ANNICE
CHRISTINA
DAYANA
*GEOK LENG*
HERDA
JASON TOH
JOSHUA
SARAH
SHIKIN
SHIMA
SULINAH
XUELI