Life's Pleasures

Life has been pretty steady for the past week. Interestin in one way & borin in another.

School postin was released last week. Yeah yeah. Got my first choice. I wasn't delighted. Just felt relieved the waitin was over. School's startin next month. Excitin yet nerve-racking.

Leavin for Bintan for a short holiday this comin Friday. Lyk I told someone, it's the only paradise I can find nearest to home. A lil' trip off to paradise will do me good. Gettin away from the fast paced life in Singapore will freshen me up a great deal. Trust me it does. It's lyk fallin off a 12-storey high buildin & wakin up knowin that you're still alive & still in one piece. [Though of course this is not possible unless a miracle happens.] It's that effective . You feel new. You feel great. You'll be ready to take on the world.

If everything's comfirmed, a chalet will be comin just for us - The Soul Sistas. Lookin foward to our short escapade. Hah! It will be a blast. That I'm pretty sure.

Before I take my leave, here's a lil' something to ponder on - To win without risk is to triumph without glory.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

3:08 AM

A realization hit me. Durin the entire month of March, I updated my blog only once. Yeah. Your eyes aren't playin tricks on you. Just once. But hey! Not lyk it's my fault. My pretty lil' computer decided to go on strike & settled for a state of relaxation.

But it's not that bad a thing. Durin those times, I managed to do some thinkin & soul-searchin. Sure I got the craves to go online. My inbox was buildin up for sure. But my couz place is always a convenient place to have a go on the net. And that's only once a week. Therefore leavin more ME time.

I did mention bout soul-searchin didn't I? I've recalled events of late last year & early this year. I came up with lots of conclusion. And I slapped myself for not takin advantage of those moments. I realized those times could have brought much happiness. But you know what? Turnin back the time sure is impossible.

I've decided what to do. And I'm stickin to it til' something arises. And right now I'm waitin for the right time to do what I need to do.

To my closest galfrens. I'm sorry all this may seem a blur. But do give me time to express myself to you gals. This is all new to me. And I need time to adapt.

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

5:16 AM

Yesterday was simply crazy. So many things happen. But lyk Geok said, there wasn't much happening but it just seemed lyk it.

For many, the results were veri unexpected. For those who did better den aimed, Congrats!! For those disappointed, I can't say much except life happens to be unfair.

English was a bummer. Wasn't really glad with gettin a b4. But my sis had to rub it in by sarcasticly sayin that I'm worse at language than her. Thanks alot!! Totally broke down after that.

Time is not in my hand to do much thinkin. I better make up my mind fast. Fizah! Be decisive, please!!

Got more news from Geok. Kinda expected it. Sooner or later it will happen. It's not lyk the world is lack of gals. The time has come. But is it really true? Each time I hear something bad, my heart will skip a beat first. I wonder why.

It's no wonder. You seem to be avoidin me for way too long. I suspected something. And true enough I received news yesterday. Just waitin to see the truth of it.

But where's that frenship we promised each other? Where's that promise of always bein there for me? Were those empty promises? Where's that comfort in you I used to turn to? Has that gone stale?

You know what? I seem to lose all contact with you. I don't want that to happen. You need not do all the avoidin. Cuz I can & have to accept the fact. I can't keep clingin on to that lil' hope.

I still need you to seek for advice. I still need you as a listenin ear. I still need you as a joker. But most importantly I need you as a fren who always makes my day.

Fizah

I do things my way.
So don't stop me.

Don't be afraid to make a wrong move.
Because life has a funny way of making all things wrong seem right.

Memories don't do us much good.
It becomes of a burden as we age.

footprints

don't leave

ALTHEA
AMELIA
ANNICE
CHRISTINA
DAYANA
*GEOK LENG*
HERDA
JASON TOH
JOSHUA
SARAH
SHIKIN
SHIMA
SULINAH
XUELI