Life's Pleasures

My knees went weak. Literally weak.

My heart was racing. At a speed I wish I could measure.

How I wish I could look into the future to know when and where you would be. That would certainly bring me to you each time. But then again, that wouldn't be fate anymore. So, it'll be best to leave it in the hands of destiny.

I almost did want I wanted to do. But courage wasn't strong enough to keep me going.

I will do so one day. I hope. And I hope by then it would not be too late.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

1:51 PM

I'm proud myself.

Finally, I've managed to control my temptations. On shopping to be more specific.

Sure I loved that Nike duffel bag. But it wasn't their best collection. So I might as well wait patiently for one that strikes my fancy more. Also, thanks to Pearlyn darling for helping me make my decision.

I pulled my eyes away from you for once. I didn't want our eyes to meet. I didn't want my heart to start pounding. I'm trying my best to stay in this realm of controlled emotions. Seeing you might trigger the relapse of certain feelings. Feelings and thoughts that I might never be yours and you mine.

To someone else, I thank you for understanding. And once again assuring me that you'll always be there when I'm in need of a friend. However, I would like to apologize if anything I said hurt you. In a friendship honesty is the best kept trait.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

1:45 PM

This entry is specially dedicated to you.

I've known you for 5 whole years and am still counting.
The friendship, I treasure.
I love how we seem to always have a special bond that sometimes words can't explain.
I love how you make me smile with words of yours.
Sometimes just seeing you makes me do so.

At times I feel like I'm falling in love with you all over again.
With that degree of closeness we share.
But I'll be honest with you by telling you that no feelings have been rekindled since a few months ago.
It's because of feelings I have for someone else.
But, if it ever does happen, would telling you be fine?
Would you start avoiding me if I do tell you?
I'd like to make both our lives easier.

You seem happy with your current relationship.
Trust me I've never been jealous over your past relationships after me.
I'm not the girl some people think I am.
Instead I'm glad for you.
And it certainly shows that you move on way faster. =)
For now I wish you happiness with your special one.

You're like the brother who's always out to tease the younger sis.
I wish I could tell you things that are happening in my life.
I do need opinions from a brother/guy.
But we've got our own lives to live.

Let's live life one day at a time.
I'll see you soon.
I forgot.
School seems to be a very convenient place.

And Hari Raya gathering was no less great than last year.
From the first minute right up til' the last.
Except, waiting for those who were late.
It's the same every year.

So, you take care.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

7:37 AM

Blogging seems to be unfamiliar to me. Maybe because I'm starting to get bored with it. But now I'm back. However, don't keep coming back every other day cause it might be dissappointing.

Life's been how it seems like it is. Taking one thing at a time. No point rushing or I might just falter.

I thought my feelings were controlled. Til' last night.

Land of dreams was just a sleep away when your face appeared suddenly. Yup. That lil' picture which pops out of my head. And yes! I literally saw your face with my eyes closed.

That definitely slap me out of my sleep. I was shocked. Confused.

If only I would take that one step in getting to know you...
If only I would....

Let's just take one step at a time...

Fizah

I do things my way.
So don't stop me.

Don't be afraid to make a wrong move.
Because life has a funny way of making all things wrong seem right.

Memories don't do us much good.
It becomes of a burden as we age.

footprints

don't leave

ALTHEA
AMELIA
ANNICE
CHRISTINA
DAYANA
*GEOK LENG*
HERDA
JASON TOH
JOSHUA
SARAH
SHIKIN
SHIMA
SULINAH
XUELI