Life's Pleasures

This post would be a memory of Tuesday, 090506. I was too busy then to pour my feelings out into this blog. I'm taking time out now to do so.

Before I start, I would just like to say please pardon the language that I would be using this time round.

I've had my troubles in Yr 1.
I thought maybe, just maybe things would be better in Yr 2.
It was a new start and I was expecting a lil' more.

The first big task.
Hoping it would be a smooth one.

Frustration No.1:
You seemed like the nice one.
Guess what? You're not.
You're just living in your own fantasy.
You want everything perfect?
Sure.
I'll give you that.
At least show me some respect.
Don't say things you won't put action into.
Life is too fucking short for you to play with my mind.
Don't bother cruising up to me and be all nice when you're in need of something.
Trust me I'll bounce right out.

One more thing, my friend doesn't belong to you.
For your info, I've known her for 8 years.
I definitely mean more to her than you.
What's a short trip compared to 8 years.
God, it could have even been a marriage.
You've played with my mind once.
I know your game.
So don't try it out on my friend.
I know her better than you do.
So back off.

I'm doing things for my own sake.
So don't take my exterior as a sign that you're liked.
I'll let you know.
Being a Gemini, I play well with my personality.
When I say, I'm not to be fooled, I mean it.

You wanted me to be a team player?
I did.
You wanted to be a leader?
I let you.
But let me lay down the picture for you.
You're bloody shit not playing your role.
And when I kind of took over the role, you were not impressed and came rolling back.
It's just too late.
I bloody hell know my strengths and weaknesses.
And one of it is my leadership.
I'm not boasting.
But I know where I stand.

I'll let you have your way.
For now.
Soon enough you'll be down the drain.
Oh well, you're half way there.
You're already on my hate list.
And for your info, my hate list is short.
So do rejoice.

Frustration No.2:
I thought you were different.
I guess not.
From day one I trusted what you said.
You said "Okay, sure.", I believed.
Turns out it's all just words.

Something bad happened and I feel for you.
But now I think it's just a lie.
It's just a story.
You have a fucking responsibility for goodness sake.
5mins is all it takes.
At least I know you've done your part.

Too bad this first task is coming to an end.
Too late for you to redeem yourself.
I won't allow you to do so anyway.
You're trying to earn a grade with the work we have done?
Well, it's not happening.
It will never happen.

You left a bad first impression.
And it's staying with me for a very long time.

Alright.
I'm done.
Rewind to today.

I feel so much better.
And I thank the friends whom I complain to for giving me their listening ears.
But I can't believe I was talking til' I literally lost my voice.

Things are not turning out well for me.
I have a feeling for this kind of things.
It's a lady's intuition.
It might for someone else.
But definitely not for myself.
I'd rather not elaborate.
There are certain things I would like to keep to myself.

All seems too near. But I'm not getting any.

Fizah

I do things my way.
So don't stop me.

Don't be afraid to make a wrong move.
Because life has a funny way of making all things wrong seem right.

Memories don't do us much good.
It becomes of a burden as we age.

footprints

don't leave

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