Life's Pleasures

So my birthday just past last Sunday, 11 June.

Do I feel older? My spirits do. Life stresses have been getting to my head. I need my youthfulness back. And I need it back fast.

Sunday celebration was simple. A day of eating, no doubt about that. Family ties is nothing compared to all other things material.

Then came Monday. Oh god, was I thankful for that particular Monday. The four of us finally met up for dinner. It has been a long time hasn't it??

The Omen before that. Part of me says, "It's a bummer." Another says, "It was QUITE exciting." Let's just close the case.

I realize that turning 18 isn't that fun afterall. Life challenges are getting more challenging and burdens are getting heavier.

I felt dumb. I felt stupid. Why didn't I think before I pressed the "SEND" button? Why Why Why?? I've let feelings take control over me.

At the start of the next day, things came rushing back to my mind. I did all in the moment of impulse and did not mean each and every single word. It was simply the accumulation of feelings. I wish I could take back what I said, but what's done can't be undone. So, I've learnt and I'll move on.

Darling, I'm sorry. You know I feel down-right awful for making you feel upset. I never want you to feel upset or angry, yet I was dumb enough to let it happen.

I know this is going to be a lil' strain on our friendship. But let's work our way up again ya? This beautiful friendship isn't meant to be broken. Let's hope that overcoming this lil' incident will strengthen our friendship.

You're still my bestfriend. And I still love you.

Call me, let me know you're doing fine.

Thursday, June 08, 2006

11:35 AM

Alright dear. The wishlist is up. Go figure where it's located.

I know some of the items are just plain out of your budget, but I'm just putting it up to make myself feel satisfied. =)

And if you realize, one of the items is priceless. That's the only real thing that I would like to receive this year. I don't care about the presents. I don't care about the surprises. I just need tha right company.

I'm hoping this year would be different.

Friday, June 02, 2006

1:55 PM

I'm exhausted. Very exhausted. Yet, I never allow my mind and heart to take a rest.

I don't understand how some people work. They do stuffs like time stops for them. I may be a procrastinator, but doing things that concerns my future, I never dare delay. Maybe I'm just stressing out and thinking too much.

Fizah!!! Stop the stress that you put on yourself. Life's too short for you to start losing hair at this age.

Caught Da Vinci Code last night with Geoky dear. The show was alright. Expected a lil' more. Definitely not as well scripted as the book. And I do need to read the book again, cause' watching the movie alone was PLAIN CONFUSING.

My birthday's less than 2 weeks. Time passes by way too fast. I just wish for one thing this year. Happiness. Sometimes the simplest things is all that matters.

Someone asked me to give her a wishlist. Maybe I shouldn't have suggested to start this tradition. Cause' I can't come up with a list!!!!! I'm not used to telling friends what to get me, so you'll have to wait a lil' longer ya dear??

Days are slow when you expect too much.

Fizah

I do things my way.
So don't stop me.

Don't be afraid to make a wrong move.
Because life has a funny way of making all things wrong seem right.

Memories don't do us much good.
It becomes of a burden as we age.

footprints

don't leave

ALTHEA
AMELIA
ANNICE
CHRISTINA
DAYANA
*GEOK LENG*
HERDA
JASON TOH
JOSHUA
SARAH
SHIKIN
SHIMA
SULINAH
XUELI