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Tuesday, January 30, 2007
12:38 PM My heart stops beating. Or it beats triple times. I get low on nothing. And I get high on the slightest of things. I wonder without much of a sense. While I wait like time stops for me. This condition is making me bleed. Right down through my veins. Don't leave me stranded. Cause' I want someone to turn to. I say a prayer at this moment. Wishing that somehow I never knew you. Sunday, January 21, 2007
3:50 AM The long walk from Orchard to Novena. (with the multiples of junctions we had to go through) The exploring of roads in Singapore. (getting a lil' lost) The early dessert at The Baker's Story. (i love the sinful brownies) The dinner at Prata House. (finally, my craving of prata is fulfilled) The long talk we had after that. (i love talks) IKEA is our next target. I love you so much Dearest. =) Confessions make me laugh at myself. Seriously. Those were the days when I was a lil' more innocent. We got down to serious talking. We concluded that it's all KARMA. We're just hoping that the KARMA will end soon. We've learnt our lesson. We question each other. Without getting any definite answer. Looking at each other, we realize we have control over nothing. Nothing at all. We're just making our minds go in circles. I opened up a topic on my past. I almost teared. The promise of being friends was somewhat altered. I don't see my existence in your life anymore. I don't know how you're doing. I just need to say this. I miss you. I dont' want to go to sleep each night thinking of all the "maybes" and "mights". Thursday, January 18, 2007
2:53 PM I was looking for signs. Signs to direct me towards the right decision. It never came. It's like plants waiting for rain during a drought. It's like when the past refuses to let you move on. And when you refuse to let go of the past. Being pulled back and forth confuses me right to my peak. All I'm left to do is sit and wait. And the cycle continues. I say my prayers each night. But no one seem to hear them. I'm wishing you well tonight. Tuesday, January 16, 2007
11:53 AM It sucks when at this moment in time, hope is all that I could hold on to. Yet, friends tell me that having too much hopes just makes a person crumble. So, I'll just let everything go. And then I'll start questioning myself, YET AGAIN. Sunday, January 14, 2007
11:32 AM The 10th was his birthday. The actual celebration was held at Swensens on the 11th. So here's a couple of pics taken. Saturday, January 13, 2007
4:31 PM I lose all control. Not knowing where to move on next. A state of confusion. I keep telling myself I'll get over it. Am I lying to myself? Maybe I am. "Nothing seems to be right. There's nothing I can do. I feel special to myself. But not to anyone else around me." Tuesday, January 09, 2007
3:25 PM People have been bugging me to make an update for the new year. When laziness creeps in, that's when Fizah disappears from the blogging world. Finally making my return, this would be the first entry of 2007. Yes. I know I'm a little late to be bragging about how my New Year was celebrated. So I'll not bother. Today, 8 days into the new year, 2007 have been beautiful so far. Family gatherings, a birthday celebration to be remembered and a gorgeous day at the Zoo & Night Safari. I just hope the rest of the year would be the same. A year filled with memorable events. I'm stepping into 2007 with a positive mind, keeping with me memories of the past and looking forward to the many more that I will encounter in 2007. Resolutions. Somehow they don't interest me anymore. Why be tied down by agendas when I've got a whole world to explore. I have one motto this year, "Live Free". So, may 2007 be an interesting and enriching year for all. Have a blast people!! Anyway, before I take my leave below people have been complaining that I don't put much photos on my blog. So from now on, I shall do so. Enjoy!! The birthday girl. 030107. The people that made the celebration possible. The four who gave excursions to the Zoo a new meaning. 060107. We only come alive at night. |
Fizah
I do things my way. So don't stop me. Don't be afraid to make a wrong move. Because life has a funny way of making all things wrong seem right. Memories don't do us much good. It becomes of a burden as we age. footprints
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