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Thursday, November 29, 2007
11:30 PM Reality is hitting me too fast. I can't believe the pace things are moving. I can't breathe. I'm gasping for air. I'm exhausted. Time seems to be 10 steps ahead of me. I'm far behind and I can feel it. I'm losing it. I don't want to lose it. Honestly, I'm afraid. Of not achieving what I want to. I refuse to disappoint myself. I need to win this war. This war of pulling and pushing. And finally, I put myself to rest. Assignments and projects are a pain in the ass. Period. Tuesday, November 27, 2007
12:26 AM Take a moment to ponder about what I am about to ask and say. Have a friend ever turn his back on you? How many times do you have to forgive before you realize you have to stop doing so? Does the entire world population only consist of selfish people? How many times do you think that things will change for the better? At the end of the day, do you stop to think that trust is just a word being used without much consideration? I believe every human is selfish in his own way. To survive this intense, crazy world, people push all things out of their way to achieve what might sometimes seem unachievable. But what's the limit, you ask. I won't answer that question. With every step I take in life, I realize how confusing things can get. With every step I take in life, I realize how things can never be controlled. I learned that trust is something you shouldn't give away too easily. It's to be earned and given only to the right people. With that, I know I'll live a life with more peace. Sunday, November 25, 2007
2:28 AM Why did you lie to me? Why did you play out on me? The feeling keeps pricking me. I'll eventually die out one day. Yes, we are still young. I had a great cheek workout today too. Friday, November 23, 2007
11:29 PM Looking back, I think I spoiled things for myself. I want to feel regret. But I see no point in doing so. I'm learning to live with it. That eventually one day, things will go back to the way it used to be. And I'm looking forward to that fateful day. Going for a manicure and pedicure is a sure way to relieve myself. For awhile at least. Silly me, destroyed it within an hour. And I got it repaired. Now I'm a happy girl. There are things to be known. Wednesday, November 21, 2007
11:29 PM I knew this day was coming. Eventually it will. And it did. So I cried. The tears that have been kept for far too long. And finally it was released. I feel better. I'm alright. That's what I'm telling myself. Sooner or later I'll be really alright. Tomorrow will be a better day. I believe in that. Good night world. Saturday, November 17, 2007
1:26 PM First week of school has been wicked. Take it in your own interpretation. The gang is not complete. Still awaiting the return of 2 others. It's coming real soon. I'm blowing a hole in my pocket. And food has always been the culprit. End of the month's coming. I foresee better spending days. 2 essentials to get. That watch. That bag. ------------------- Don't turn your back on me. Don't leave me hanging. I'm open for negotiations. |
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I do things my way. So don't stop me. Don't be afraid to make a wrong move. Because life has a funny way of making all things wrong seem right. Memories don't do us much good. It becomes of a burden as we age. footprints
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