Life's Pleasures

Disappointments.
I'm probably the best person you could be talking to right this moment.
When a blow is thrown at me one after another, at one point I crumble.
And that point is now.
It's all a little too much to handle.

What I'm saying might all not make sense, but I'm typing all this while tears are flowing and my mind and emotions are in a whirlwind.
My hands are shaking while typing if you just need more proof.

I could kill myself.
I'm serious.
But religiously, it's a fucking big sin.
And at the same time, I know I'm smarter than that.

This time no one can help me.
I've got to work things out on my own.
I just hope it'll all turn out good.
At least let me stay sane.

Let's hope I do the right things.

dear god, don't kill my spirit. please.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

11:51 PM

I answered my best.
I hope it was good enough.
Now, I'll wait.

Leaving it all to fate.

taking one day at a time.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

12:50 AM

My bestfriend's not feeling too well.
And I miss her.
I want to meet her soon, so we can get back to doing what we do best. =)

I miss someone else.
Let's keep that a little secret.

I'm stuck in a confused zone.
Neither left nor right.

Imagine this.

You tape your favorite movie, to watch it time and again.
What's the use of taping, if you can't forward and rewind it to your favorite scenes.
They tell you to just use the forward and rewind buttons.
And they casually accuse you of being stupid.
But the problem is, each time you rewind it goes back too far; and each time you forward it stops much further ahead.
Bottom line: Never where you want it to be.

That's how I feel.

a little patience, a little understanding.

Sunday, December 07, 2008

12:18 AM

You said one thing, and did another.
This time, I've been stabbed right in the front.

I'm not even upset; just really angry.

blatant actions that hurt deep down.

Saturday, December 06, 2008

1:08 AM

Quarantine was unbelievable.
Scenes were really gore; and definitely numerous heart-thumping moments.

Screams catapulted from my throat.
And it wasn't helpful that a cute ang moh was sitting right beside me.
It was rather embarrassing.
After awhile I couldn't be bothered; he himself got jumpy towards the end.

The movie left me with unanswered questions.
A good yet crazy way to start my holidays.

Talking about holidays, my last paper was (fill in the blank).
Honestly, I don't wish to talk about it.
I'm hoping for the best.

I truly wish those words are for real.
And that it came right from the bottom of your heart.

pick the broken pieces; we'll fix it back together.

Thursday, December 04, 2008

11:00 PM

In exactly 12 hours, marks the end of a semester.

That just spells out H-O-L-I-D-A-Y.
Breathe in, breathe out.
Just 12 more hours.

Stressed: No
Worried: Yes

i'll have a good night. tomorrow will be splendid.

2:04 AM

A little confused.
Nothing is obvious.
One step at a time.

I'll be good.

slow it all down.

Fizah

I do things my way.
So don't stop me.

Don't be afraid to make a wrong move.
Because life has a funny way of making all things wrong seem right.

Memories don't do us much good.
It becomes of a burden as we age.

footprints

don't leave

ALTHEA
AMELIA
ANNICE
CHRISTINA
DAYANA
*GEOK LENG*
HERDA
JASON TOH
JOSHUA
SARAH
SHIKIN
SHIMA
SULINAH
XUELI